Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Every Hour I Need Thee

Time for some honesty.

Lately I have been terrible at spending time with God and reading the Bible. I have been through many different seasons of this in my life. There have been months where I read the Bible every single day, there have been months I was fairly consistent and then there is the latest season... non-existent.

When we were going through the miscarriage and trying to conceive again I was spending time with God daily because I didn't know what else to do to find strength. God blessed that time so much and truly healed my heart and then went above and beyond by blessing us with this precious baby! As soon as that happened I was pretty much done reading the Bible and spending time with God. I still went to church regularly and prayed throughout each day but that was the extent of it. I didn't have a "burning" need to sit with God after he gave me what I wanted. It sounds so selfish to type, but I did say it was time for honesty and honestly that was how I felt.

The school I teach at had a tragic bus accident because of fog years ago that took some children's lives. Because of this, on really foggy mornings we have school delays. This morning I find myself with three extra hours. I needed to do dishes or laundry and I wanted to watch Pioneer Woman, but I found myself unable to stop thinking about how I could use this extra time to be with God. So that's exactly what I did.

I love the She Reads Truth app for women's bible studies so I decided to start with the Hymns series they have. I began with the hymn "I Need the Every Hour" and it was exactly what I needed.

The simple line of this hymn just made me realize that I cannot pick and choose when I need God in my life or when I need to take time out of my day to spend quiet time with him. I wrote these words in my Life Lived Beautifully journal;

Why do I act like I don't need to spend time with God or in the Bible?
I need thee every hour. 

Why do I forget to thank him daily, for all I have comes from Him?
I need thee every hour. 

Why in times of need do I try to first solve my problems alone?
I need thee every hour. 

Why on normal, run-of-the-mill days do I neglect to even think of God?
I need thee every hour. 

After listening to this song and letting the message sink in, I started working on a new schedule for my mornings. I am going to make reading my Bible and spending time with God a priority each morning.

Do you struggle with this as well? Join me in making it a part of each day!


Lindsay Colvin said...

This hit home for me today. I spend time in the Word everyday, but sometimes I find myself just making it through the reading, without really sitting to think and absorb what the Lord may be trying to teach me. Thank you for sharing!

Tobi said...

I feel you, sister! I'm all over the place on my devotions, too! I'll pray for you (especially 'cuz I know it won't get easier when Baby Smith arrives, but it will get even more needed!) Will you return the favor? Love you and I'm so proud of you. My baby sister is all growed up!!!

Deborah Raney said...

You can't know how much this blessed your mama. And convicted her, too. I'm afraid you come by this trait honestly. I always cling tighter to Jesus when I'm struggling with something than when everything is going well. I'm so glad He doesn't give us what we deserve, but instead ALWAYS says, "Welcome back... I'm so glad you chose to spend time with me today! Let me bless you!"

Ken Raney said...

Tavia, I'm so blessed by this. I go through it, too. I think we all do, but you addressed it beautifully!